Part One was taken to light with an assignment and tutor feedback, that pushed me during part Two to revisit my approach to the material and content of the course. Diligently, I looked at my working habits, preparation and writing skills and the way I was going to work with my blog.
All of this additional efforts and time it eventually turned into a much more successful second assignment essay. But overall, I understood Modernity, Modernism and how the various avant-garde movements were interconnected and played their role in modern art. I appreciate very much the insight and the learnings I got from it.
Part Three is another challenge, perhaps not in amount and duration of an era covered, but more in content and to obtain a thorough understanding of the subject matter – if this is possible with poststructuralist and postmodern authors like Derrida at all.
I continue to work with my newly learned work habits, with more experience I am becoming more fluent. And I do like the discourse.
However, there is a concern and drawback of a deep interrogation with the subject matter. How it impacts my thinking and communication style with others. My wife put her attention to this. My learnings: not to deconstruct normal speech in daily life, Keep this for the academic part. Otherwise I am running into troubles to be understood.
Another aspect is how art theory and the theoretical side of visual culture, at times rather philosophical, is impacting or manipulating my authentic self-reflection. Perhaps post-structualist would tell me this is nonsense, as authenticity doesn’t exist and it is an illusion. However, I do feel myself as trying to be authentic and myself. One notion a fellow student commented on is binary thinking and difference. Art theory (Modernism, Post-Modernism) is looking at differences in order to understand history, human beings and artists do transgress differences in theory. They are not made out of theory but flesh and personality.
In summary that means for me with the workload and heavy lectures I need to step out and keep a healthy distance to avoid getting bogged down.
I truly appreciate any feedback from others. Though, I feel at times pretty lonely, especially in this course, a new version, fellow students are more behind, and in the forum not so much activity on Visual Studies